collage: daniel abdal-hayy moore
VANISHED
AWAY COMPLETELY
by
Daniel Abdal-Hayy Moore
I
always feel it could all just evaporate away at
any
moment that it’s on the
verge
of evaporating right this minute that
some
parts of it are already going and I’m left
with
nothing or next to nothing
were
it not for the divine adhesive
That
I’m on the verge of losing it all and any
ability
to capture it or typify it or even just
sing
limp songs to it in my fashion with all their
stampeding
horses and heart-pulses throughout them
golden
or not a few forlorn lamentations or
jubilations
And
then look around at a scarce and
barren
place with some bent figures in the
distance
combing through the debris perhaps to
complete
the post-holocaustal picture
but
even in its minute particulars life is
but
a dream merrily merrily we row our
boat
down and the breath of
death
angels on our cheeks gives them that
peach
flush
There’s
an abyss between us and what we see
Ghostly
ships are coming into harbor
great
sails are unfurling and it’s actually
more
universe about to vanish in smoke
As
their prows become visible they’re already
evaporating
And
yet the earnest sincerity of good-hearted people
suggests
a kind of permanence
A
thing which is already disembodied and
subtle
in nature
has
more solid endurance and reality and
fills
up the abyss with something more than
fantastic
zoo animals
ibexes
dik-diks creatures with
curlicue
horns and beady eyes
Soul-stuff
actually is of the permanent universe
while
everything else is already half-gone
sliding
like a paper-thin 2-dimensional kind of
magical
slide sideways into
non-being
so that what we experience all the time is already
mostly
gone and in the
next
moment has
vanished
away completely
~
previously published in Blood Songs (The
Ecstatic Exchange)
